19 August 2014

In The Blink Of An Eye





We had a fun agenda this weekend; a rare date night, birthday celebrations, and preschool open house. Saturday night Rory and Sookie headed out to the front of our garage to catch a giant beetle. I was upstairs going to the bathroom real quick and seconds later heard Rory call out, "Tahnie, I need towels. NOW." I knew it was an emergency by the tone of his voice. I made it to the front porch, tossed two towels to Roar, and looked down to see a scene of shattered glass and blood everywhere. So much blood. Too much blood. As they were walking down the steps, Rory fell. The mason jar he was holding broke, and stabbed his left palm, cutting an artery. Sookie? Our sweet girl was visibly extremely upset, but calm and brave. So unbelievably brave. I went into panic mode, for a split second considered calling an ambulance, but quickly decided I could get him to the ER quicker, as we live 5 minutes from the hospital. I grabbed the keys to the truck, and thanked my past self for leaving flip flops downstairs, as it saved me a few precious seconds from another trip upstairs. In a blur, I swooped Sookie up and helped Rory into the truck. I don't remember much of driving to the hospital. When we arrived I ran in and told them we needed help. Waiting for someone to come out and assist us seemed like an eternity. The blood was soaking the towel quick and when I tried to kiss him or comfort him with touch, it only made it gush even faster. I was doing my best to keep Sookie calm in the backseat. They finally came out with a wheelchair and took him inside. I went to park the truck and brainstormed who to call to come keep Sookie company.

When we entered the ER I realized the room they had him in was itty bitty. That was actually the only room they could get open. I found out while I was parking the truck, they had started working on him in the hall because blood was dripping onto the floor in the waiting room. I was doing my best to keep Sookie away from more trauma and yet attempting to figure out what the medical team was planning to do.

I started calling family to have someone come help with Sook. They drew blood from Rory ( ironic, right?!) to check his hemocrit to see if he needed a blood transfusion. At one point a nurse was attempting to pinch his artery shut with her hands, in order to stop the bleeding. They eventually had to resort to putting a tourniquet on him as they waited for the orthopedic hand surgeon to arrive.

My incredible sister in law Michelle came to take our brave Sookie girl back home. The reality of the ER team calling in an orthopedic hand surgeon hit me hard. I didn't want Rory to see me fall apart, so I ran outside to get some fresh air, called our old neighbor and glockets partner, Afton, and stopped fighting the tears. This boy loves playing his guitar. He is a music man. And, you know, only makes our living writing iPhone app code.

They started taking x-rays of his hand to make sure pieces of glass weren't stuck in there. He was still dealing with all of this without any pain medication. He was an absolute rockstar throughout all of this. He is my hero. The tourniquet was doing its job and his hand was turning gray. It was horrifying. I kept praying for him to be able to keep function of his hand. It was his left hand. He is left handed.

At this point, my marvelous mother in law was at our house, cleaning up the disaster of blood and glass on our front porch. My amazing mom arrived at the hospital for more support.

Finally, 45 minutes later, the orthopedic hand surgeon arrived and created a makeshift operating table in the tiny ER room. He numbed Rory's hand and quickly began fixing this insane mess. I watched a bit of the surgery and his life saving work. He was able to cauterize Rory's artery, ending the bleeding once and for all. I am still haunted by the smell of burning tissue. He stitched him up, made him a stint, and told us he wanted to see Rory again on Wednesday.

Rory's hemocrit levels were not low enough to warrant a blood transfusion. (Huge miracle!) We were able to go home that night.

Things have been tough. Rory is on heavy pain killers and super antibiotics. Sookie is right by his side, offering hugs and I love yous. This has shook us all to our cores, reminding us life can change drastically, in the blink of an eye. Yet truthfully, we are so lucky, all things considered. We are focusing on the good facets of this awful adventure; that I was home, that we live so close to the hospital, that we have such fantastic family, that Sookie was able to stay calm and wasn't injured, that Rory can move his fingers and that he is ALIVE.

Thank you to everyone who has lifted is up through this. Life is a precious gift & we were reminded of that in a brutally beautiful manner.

28 July 2014

Hello Monday: Make Them Brave


Hello Monday and absorbing all the inspiration and wisdom in new music. This particular line above has been swimming in my head nonstop. The more I live, the more I witness firsthand what power thoughts hold. I truly believe music is healing. I think of myself as very lucky I grew up around such abundant amounts of it. My dad owned a music store for over twenty years and I know it contributed to my passion for surrounding myself with it. These days I'm listening to the two new Counting Crows songs, and the new Jason Mraz album, YES!

Hello these last few days of July; late dinners, fireworks, making our own popsicles, watermelon swimsuits and sweet corn on the cob!

Hello little grasshopper friend!



Hello quotes that hit you square in the middle of right where you need it most.

Hello to this silly, brave, strong girl. Who said to me this morning, "What kind of tea would you like? There's strawberry, lipstick, blueberry, blueberry lemon, and dragon's heart."



Hello reading reading reading this summer. I'm back in tune with my inner crazy bookworm and the happy side effects of reading a ton are reaching into every facet of my life. I finished The Afterlife of Billy Fingers the other day and loved it! I'm now in the thick of Embracing Quincy. What are you reading these days?

21 July 2014

Hello Monday: My Leopard Spots To Polka Dots


Joining up with Lisa Leonard again this week for the Hello Monday blog prompt! I love this series and the bold inspiration behind beginning each week with crisp motivation and hope.



Hello little flowers on freshly cut grass and bow sandals.

Hello feeling invigorated by nature's majestic beauty.

Hello to finding pieces of plot twists to be grateful for (both in fiction I'm reading and in my own real life storyline.)

Hello making our house our home, with our eclectic touches somehow all meshing together to showcase our personalities. The writing space of mine provides a welcome solace when I feel overwhelmed with the world.

Hello new Counting Crows lyrics to fall in love with, all in their new song, Palisades Park. That whole part about changing from leopard spots to polka dots? Yeah, I feel you on that one Adam.

Hello brand new round key gLocket now available! Don't forget to use code HAPPYGIRL for 20% off at http://glockets.com




Hello to loving my new Jabra Rox Wireless Earbuds. Have you entered to win yet?!

Hello embracing the rest of this gorgeous summer.

Hello Jimmy Fallon plush to make us laugh around here. I bought it for Roar for Father's Day and thought he might have fun keeping it at the office to provide a giggle or two when work stress is weighing on him.




What are you saying hello to this week?

20 July 2014

The Shocking Beauty Of The Right Now No. 2

Last summer I wrote a post about all the details that were filled to the brim with shocking beauty. I decided to do it again tonight to remind me everything building little and big memories in the middle of all of this, right now.






Monday adventures to start off last week, just the three of us; complete with electric blue dragonflies soaring through fiery red wildflowers, while tiny green grasshoppers jumped about. My two loves fishing side by side. Sookie's pterodactyl impersonation echoing throughout the mountainside, breaking the tranquility of quiet nature and surely scaring the fish.

Making brunch for my momma and my girl, after a special sleepover. Killer french toast, coconut oil and honey are two of my favorite things to put in it.

After a frustrating day yesterday, redirecting our energy to letting loose in the backyard. Chasing Sookie chasing Jack, who happened to be chasing a giant green ball. Four year old sing song laughter floating through the air. Thinking to myself over and over, I love this.

Watching Chitty Chitty Bang Bang together as a family for the first time in the extra bedroom while our bedroom was in pieces in preparation for new carpet.



What details are filled with shocking beauty in your world right now?

18 July 2014

Creating A Life Without Limits





Lately I'm realizing that everything I thought I knew? Well, I've been wrong about a lot. Everything I thought I knew, I didn't know at all. For a long time I never thought I would be a mother, because so many messages from society told me not to dare even daydream about it. I never saw myself graduating college. I can tell you honestly when I was in 5th grade and in end stage renal failure, I was more than slightly terrified of reaching to build the life I have now. Amazing how that all works, right? Sometimes daring to even think about beautiful happenings is our biggest, most terrifying step.

No matter what kind of rules you feel pressured to follow, no matter what boxes others attempt to fit you into, there is always your own path. Forge ahead, don't look back, ask for help when you need it, but don't forget your biggest cheerleader should always be yourself. Build the life you want from scratch.




When we put fences around our dreams we are sending vibes out into the world that we don't want our wildest desires because deep down we don't think we deserve them. We wonder if we are strong enough to handle pushing beyond boundaries. I see wires in many different forms; physical, mental, emotional. Sometimes we imagine the wires ourselves and other times they can be tangible, either way we don't have to be bound or held back by them.

A life without limits, a life without wires, creating a life on your own terms while being able to design a life you love. Isn't that what we all crave?





Jabra sent me a pair of Jabra Rox wireless headphones and instantly it occurred to me that they provide freedom and music; two of my favorite things in this world. There have been several times over the course of my life when I have experienced the healing power of music firsthand; during hospitalizations throughout my life, endless hours in waiting rooms while I was going through the kidney transplant process, and when I was on bed rest during my high risk pregnancy with our daughter. And freedom? Well, right now I'm about one month shy of turning 31 and I've already lived 20 years past my predicted life expectancy. If that isn't freedom, I don't know what is. Beautiful things happen when you challenge predictions for your own story and set yourself free from limits.





Let me gush about the Jabra Rox Wireless Earbuds for a quick second. First of all, Jabra provides three different sizes of ear gels for the ultimate comfort. Plus, a protective bag for keeping the earbuds safe. The charging time is short and sweet; a simple two and a half hours and bam, you are good to go! It is refreshing to be able to have a devise I can use for walks around the neighborhood with Sookie and no wires to worry about! Connecting them to my iPhone with bluetooth is easy as pie. They are also wonderful as a simple solution for tunes while writing to keep the imagination flowing as I work on blog posts or my memoir. I often write on my Macbook late at night in bed. Many times our little princess is sleeping next to me and I want to be able to listen to something without waking her, and without the added clutter and mess of more wires.

I want to hear your stories! I've teamed up with Jabra for a fantastic opportunity not only to share your thoughts, but to win your very own pair of Jabra Rox Wireless Earbuds! Leave a comment on this post detailing your detours and how you have jumped hurdles of living a life without wires. How have you created a life without limits? What advice do you have for others looking to simplify their lives?

Giveaway is open until Friday, July 25th. Winner will be picked at random. Good luck! I can't wait to read your stories!